Stressed and yet Hopeful..

So I've been gone a few days...ie no postings....

I had my 10 week midwife appt on Friday and didn't get the news I was hoping for.

She was going through all the standard questions...and asked LMP- New Years Eve...was it normal..yes...was I on a regular cycle...kind of...I didn't resume until Lils was 13 months. blah blah more questions...
She reminds me it could be still early to listen to the heartbeat, but we try...nothing...ok we'll try again on that next week.

Next internal exam....hmmmm she says...."Laura, I don't feel a 10 week uterus...in fact it feels normal...we need to do an ultrasound....Are you sure on your dates?" She says she doesn't want to alarm me or stress me out, but something doesn't feel right.

At this point I'm freaking out. I've had zero complications...no cramping no bleeding etc....The labs are all booked at 3 places for an ultrasound, so I have to wait until Monday morning at 9am. We do my blood work and the results will be in on Saturday w/my baby blood work...ie pregnancy test...HCG levels and progesterone levels too. Thankfully my midwife is calling for the results on Saturday and will let me know...

I'm a wreck all day long......I can't think straight...all I want to know is if my baby is ok?? She mentions the term Blighted Ovum and I'm on the internet for hours looking it up.....

Saturday...Birthing Center calls w/hopeful news....pregnancy comes back positive (but from what I read HCG levels can last until 12 weeks) My progesterone is high and that's promising...and my HCG level was over 16,000 which is another good sign...they think that possibly my dates are off and I'm 6-8 weeks and not the 10 I thought. I'll need another blood work done after the U/S on Monday to compare levels.

I'm not sure how I could be off on my dates...I took a pregnancy test 24 days after my LMP and got a positive! BUT I'LL TAKE WHAT I GET RIGHT NOW.

I'm still scared...U/S is tomorrow at 9am and I'm just dying to see in there and make sure everything is ok. Prayers our way would be much appreciated!!!