I Will Not Cry

My first born is near the finish line. 

I will not cry

I did that already...I did that starting his jr year.  
The littles are obsessed w/Toy Story 1, 2, and 3 and each time 3 was on I sobbed like an infant at the end.  Turn it on that part now I bet the water works start

Tomorrow is the day....

I will not cry

They say if you blink time flies.  I don't remember blinking.  I tried hard not to

I will not cry

I remember his birth, first everything really....I remember when I only had 1 child.  I remember staring at him in the dark in the bassinet next to my bed when he was weeks old.  He would just be lying  there silently looking around in the dark not making a peep.  He made motherhood easy.  I remember when he became a brother for the first time.  I remember it all

I will not cry

I see him making plans for his future and I am starting to realize I don't get included in those plans...not really ....not in the way I wish.   I'm not the one who gets to MAKE those plans....He's becoming a man who will one day be on his own.

I will not cry

So tomorrow when you see this proud momma who can't say a word to you it's because she is struggling not to cry




Who am I kidding?
I will cry!